The Freedom Star

Tell me how planet Vulcan looks when the moon is full

Complainte de la Vie February 28, 2008

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Lying here, like I’ve only done with you before

I close my eyes and feel

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Feel your hands, on my back

Feel your breath, on my neck

Feel your hand, gliding south

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Know your eyes, how they devour me

Know your mind, that can’t get enough of me

Know your lips still know

The taste of me

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So why aren’t you here with me?

Why doesn’t he, incarnate thee?

Why can things never be

Like they used to be?

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I still remember, how my heart just… broke

Still remember, me gliding south

I know you still think of me

I know you’ll never have had enough of me

Know your tongue will always have

The taste of me

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So stop, get out of my head

Stop, just come back in my bed

Drop, what you’re doing

Right now

Make love to me

Like only you dare how

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Need your body, up against mine

Need your hands, crawling up on my spine

Want your heart, beating under my touch

Want your breath

As you get rough

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Need you, all inside me

Need you now, all over me

Want you in control

Want your insanity

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Would you come here

And give that to me?

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Find me

Let us be two

Let us be more

Than we expected to

 

I Love Hell When You’re Around February 25, 2008

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the poems so far have been pulled up from more or less ancient archives of mine, this one is brandnew

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They know

I love winters without snow

They know

I love caves and moisture in the air

They know

I love oceans full of chills

And deserts in the morning heat

What they don’t know

Is how I cheat

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I cheat them out of knowing

How soft an angel’s kiss can be

Out of seeing

How my cheeks blush when you speak

Out of feeling

My heart beating

Out of knowing me for real

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Who I am, behind the mask

Behind the smoke of words

Behind the mirror of my thorns

Is not for most to see

But I have to believe

One day there will be you

And you will know

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I love sunsets, flowers and dancing in the rain

I love floating islands and Shirley Temples on a beach

I love darkness and changes

And fading candlelight

I love oceans of twilight

I love to watch the night

But above all, I’d love to be found

Because no matter the sunshine in our lives

One thing only remains

I love hell when you’re around

 

X-Ray Vision February 24, 2008

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A knock

A look – returning a service

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Discretion

One call – shuffling inside

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So useless

Not blind

Not broken

Maybe bent?

Empowered

Confirmed

Above that

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A lady has spoken to me

Strong

Fierce

Sexual

Weak

Meek

Sensual

All me

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Tonight

No more

Tonight

Sanity

In an insane world

Tonight

Finally sanity

In an insane inner universe

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The power to see

The power to touch

The power to hear

The power to taste

The power to smell

The power to speak

Up

For me

For me

And for me only

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No more chocolate

No more beating

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A heart to guide me

A mind to help me

A body to hold me

Together

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I have seen the roots

All too clearly

The bondage of all

Who never loved me

Now I feel wings

Bursting through bones

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So much pain

Done

Felt

Overcome

So much pain

To be

Done

Felt

Overcome

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Only one light can I see

Only one light within me

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Walking through the Valley of Darkness

Strictly

Consequently

Alone

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Not lonely

 

We interrupt our regular programme… February 19, 2008

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So far, I hadn’t linked to my personal blog, because I wanted to know if I could get the poetry blog (sans explanations) going. Since this has worked – at least for now *keeps fingers crossed* – and some of you have written me, telling me you would like to know more about little ol’ me, I have decided I would link to my personal blog, for those of you who are interested in the girl behind the sappy/sad/sublime poetry you have found here thus far.

The modus operandi here will remain the same. If you want real life prose, you’ll have to look to the Golden Lasso. And yes, I’ve got an unnatural love for comic book, superhero vernacular.

I deeply thank all of you who have come here and especially those who have commented. It is very, very much appreciated. I hope you keep coming back.

Love,

Anna

 

A Song: Without You February 18, 2008

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Without you

I’m a guitar with no strings

Without you

Do they matter, all these things?

Without you breathing next to me

Darkness will surround me

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As I came from the Valley of Darkness

With so much Light in my heart

You were there to greet me

So much joy and pain in one heart!

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How did you bear it, all these years?

Where did you bury your love?

Let me be your archaeologist

Be my trench (Leto)

I’ll find your heart (my Duke)

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Chorus

‘Cause without you

I’m a violin without strings

Without you

A voice that no longer sings

Without you (I’m)

Without so many things

You’re my crystal clear spring

After this million miles I’ve run

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Never found anything more precious

Than these unfathomable eyes of yours

Never have I felt such purpose

Never believed much in anything

(You made me believe in ‘most everything)

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But now let me show you

My newest belief

It’s in you, it’s for you

Yes S****, breathe

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Chorus

‘Cause without you

I’m a violin without strings

Without you

A voice that forgets how to sing

Without you (I’m)

Without so many things

You’re my land in sight

After a million miles I swam

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Breathe my love, breathe

Don’t die on me now

Sometimes I see you

All quiet, smiling and calm

You don’t fool this Bene Gesserit

You don’t fool this Lover

I see every wound

Hear every cry

Taste every tear

But I want you to know: I’m there

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Bridge

From now on

I’m ice-skating uphill with you

From now on

Sunshine will see us through

Now let us live

Now let us breathe

Enlaced or apart

Near or far

Let us breathe, my heart, let us breathe

For a start

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Chorus

‘Cause without you

I’m a violin without strings

Without you

A voice that won’t sing

Without you (I’m)

Without so many things

Without you, boiling Ice, frozen Fire

Without you

Without so many things

Without you

Without so many things

 

Our Anniversary February 14, 2008

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She says there’s a piece of the puzzle

Missing from the atmosphere

She sings “my heart bears your name”

One tear, one teardrop falls

And I’m over-aware

My heart bears your name

And I’m still stuck here

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This is our death’s first anniversary

The only anniversary we’ll ever have

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We occupy different graves

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I remember every emotion

Your words still echo deep within me

I remember, wanting to die beside you

Our children’s names echo, lost in infinity

There’s a piece of the puzzle

I simply cannot see

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This is our death’s first anniversary

The only anniversary we’ll ever have

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And I’m buried too deep

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No, I know: no mythology

No, I know you won’t go back for me

No, I know you left before me

That’s just what’s killing me, so slowly, so surely

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You were my Duke

and I your Lady

Our spirits running free

You were my Lord

and I your Lady

But I bid you now

Unbind me

Unchain my heart

Release me from my promise

I cannot stand to be silent

But I’ve got no choice but be

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Be here at the grave, on our death’s first anniversary

Here on our love’s grave

Crying barren tears of sorrow

Screaming silent screams of pain

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This is our death’s first anniversary

My ghost still bleeds from an open wound

My ghost wails, endlessly

If I could only pray – truly pray

I would not have to ask

Why is this our first anniversary?

 

Be A Little February 10, 2008

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Be a little careful

With the words you spend

Be a little gentle

With my heart

Be a little black

Be a little white

Be a lot of red

Or better yet

Be a little pink

Be a little quiet

Let me think in peace

Be a little loud

Be a little fleece

Be a little old

Tell me stories that you’ve never told

Be a little young

Be a little wrong

Be a little right

But above all, be a little honest

And be a little gentle

With my little heart

 

An introduction February 8, 2008

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Poetry is dead. Long live poetry!

I’m tired of everyone telling me poetry doesn’t sell, poetry isn’t what the people want nowadays, poetry is dead. I write poetry. And songs. And short stories. This is where some of them will go, for everyone to read. The rules of the game are simple. I don’t plan on writing lengthy explanations as to how or why I wrote a specific piece. I will just put them out there, for you to hail, burn or roll your eyes over and move on. Hence also the name of the blog: Nyota Uhura is Swahili for “Freedom Star” and just so happens to be the name of a lovely character on one of the best TV shows ever: Star Trek. I thought it fitting for a blog that is all about my creative freedom and your freedom to judge it. I can’t promise it won’t get edgy, saucy, emo, sweet, angry, sad or happy. I can promise it will be the truth.

If you choose to ask questions or make remarks in the comments section, be my guest. I will reply to the best of my ability. And there, maybe, if you’re really interested, I will elaborate on whatever you want me to elaborate on.

Live long and prosper.

ANNA

I stayed up all night with myself
And now dawn is breaking
Over the mountains
In my heart a petrol blue calm
Outside my window
Just one star

And I’m looking at the girl I am
And what I see I love and hate
Equally
I’m looking at the girl I am
And catch the smallest glimpse
Of who she could really be

A force pushing its way through the lungs of the world
A superwoman for all womankind
A face whose expression could make
The girl I am now weep

A mother of two
My son Paul
My daughter Mara
My husband Superman
MY wife Wonder Woman

I’m a lover so passionate
My fire burns the skin
If I lose interest in you
Your heart will break
But I will walk away
Without looking back

I’m a lover so devoted
My water is breatheable
And should you lose interest in me
The wound you’ve inflicted
Will never fully heal

This woman will never need high heels
To walk proudly among men
This woman will do just as she pleases
And walk proudly among women

I’ll be sugar and spice
And all things nice
I’ll be dictator and dove
And every thing in between

I’m the darkest of dark
The most luminous light
The deepest sea
The grandest desert
The most bloodthirsty vampire
The most magical fairy

I am life’s Sorceress
I am love’s Physicist
I am logic’s Oracle
I am nature’s Engineer

And I am a naked, injured girl
Just waiting for her Prince
Because even superheroes
Sometimes need a little rescueing

Nothing Left To Say

You sat there and I sat here

The air was very blue

You sat there and I sat here

An ocean between us two

Your eyes looked away

Your lips said “I don’t love you”

You leaned back into your shame

You leaned back into your shame


So many roads I have travelled

And a million more to come

So many ways that I loved you

And you had none

But there’s nothing left to say to you

Except that, there’s nothing left to say


The sheets in which we made love

So empty without you

The sheets in which we made love

I wear them now without you

Your hate melted my Golden Path

On that sorrowful day

Nobody will ever know what we had

I’ll never be Your Lady again


So many roads I have travelled

And a million more to come

So many ways that I loved you

And you had none

But there’s nothing left to say to you

Except that, there’s nothing left to say

An empty desert road with a naked, trembling girl

A stormy Arctic sea with a drowning, helpless girl

A rainy, pitch-black pass with a howling, bleeding girl

Lucy in your arms

And the children of the night singing for me

That’s all that’s left, of you and me


So many roads I have travelled

And a million more to come

So many ways that I loved you

And you had none

But there’s nothing left to say to you

Except that, there’s nothing left to say

Lucy in your arms

And the children of the night singing to me

That’s all that’s left, of you and me

The Lady did protest too much

Who would have thought

The Old Man had so little blood in him?

 

So there we go, that was the inauguration. I hope you check back and give me your opinions. Let’s prove poetry nay-sayers wrong and let it live on a litte longer. Or, as President Whitman once said: “We will not go quietly into the night! We will not vanish, without a fight! We’re going to survive, we’re going to live on!”. Goodness, that speech makes me cry everytime.